Crap!

This whole arranged marriage thing is starting to scare the living daylights out of me. :-|

My parents seem to be merrily digging up girls all over the place. I'm being asked to call girls and hang out with girls more often than I ever thought I'd be. Today morning, I was told about a certain girl someone had spoken to my mom about... And then today evening, I was on the phone with her dad. 

This is scaring the bejesus out of me! I don't know what to do or how to behave in such situations!

Good grief, this is NOT the way it's supposed to happen! This is not what's supposed to happen with me! I'm supposed to meet a girl, be attracted to her, woo her, hang out with her, tell her I like her, have her tell me she likes me, get into a relationship with her, fall in love with her, get down on one knew and propose to her, and THEN marry her. 

I am NOT supposed to start the journey towards marrying a girl by talking to her father! No!!!

Sigh. No fair. Where is the line of girls maaroing lines on me that I was promised all through my education? :-| 

More and more often nowadays, I'm starting to feel I made the biggest mistake of my life by letting the ex walk away.